Sunday, 31 August 2014

job application for fun reading...

To whom it may concern,

I am writing in application of the Customer Service Officer (Home Builder) position, as advertised on the Seek website.

I believe I would be highly suited to this position as I have an extensive work history dealing with customers and suppliers in both construction and retail capacities.

Whilst working at G&B Aluminium, I was responsible for handling incoming customer enquiries via telephone and internet, assisting with general sales queries and processing of purchase orders. Constant liaison with suppliers was required to ensure timely delivery of materials (including glass and aluminium framing) to give our clients the confidence in knowing that their projects were being completed to their schedules, which would then in turn allow seamless transition to other trades to complete their works around our aluminium windows and doors.

As a trade sales associate with Masters Home Improvement, passion for customer service was the first priority in every customer contact. I was responsible for handling all enquiries relating to the doors, windows and timber mouldings area. I took it upon myself to learn about all aspects of this area to ensure that I was able to answer any question customers may have. During the first 6 months of store opening, I was instrumental in helping achieve sales targets by having one of the highest rating departments in the whole store. My reasoning for this is due to my passion for customer service, as customers have more confidence in purchasing a product if the person serving them has excellent product knowledge.

Negotiation and problem solving skills are required regularly for most of the roles I have worked in the past. It is important to ensure that you are meeting the needs of both the customer and share holders to be a successful business as this in turn will aid in the development of higher profits for the business.

Along with the above skills, I can bring a pleasant and happy persona which is easy to get along with, as well as impeccable attention to detail to ensure that all your projects will proceed smoothly with minimal to no errors.

I would like to take this time to thank you for considering my application for the above position and look forward to the prospect of working for you soon.

Please do not hesitate to contact me on a mobile number i'm not making public on my blog at any time to arrange an interview at your convenience.

Best regards,

Allan Fundo

overcome in the brain again.....

today was going to be different to how it turned out...

i really wanted to mow my lawns, desperately. it was the last of the great sunny days for almost a week so it was perfect mowing weather.

i tried wd40'ing the bits on my mower that jake told me to do, but the cable i think is completely snapped on the inside.

then i tried alex's mower again, playing with the spark plug, making sure it was secured, giving it a scrub between the points with sandpaper, like i've seen dad do in the past with sparks... that didn't work either...

then i felt an urge to want to kick it really hard, both of them, just out of frustration, but i knew that wouldn't fix the problem either.... i knew not to hurl the damn things across my yard cause it would damage them more and petrol flying everywhere is not a good thing either, especially on a sunny warmish day i imagine...

it wasn't a complete waste outside though, i watered/fertilised (or both) all the plants i could find, i'm still worried that a few of my casuarinas have died over the winter months...

the girls had a good wander around the house again today, still no eggs, that's 3 weeks since i got even 1 egg out of them...

brent text me to say i've been paid in full from my last 2 invoices... telstra, plumber and rates will have to be paid...

applied for another warehousing job this afternoon..

but all i can think is that i really wanted to mow my lawns and i couldn't do it, so all this energy i had ready to burn on mowing, didn't get used in full.... so now it feels like my breath is a bit short, and my brain is not having fun at all... i need more money.... cause now i have to fix a mower, or both of them depending on what it will cost to fix both of them...

and now the weather is turning grey and windy and i took out meat to do on the bbq again, but i've had a late lunch of a puff pastry pinwheel thingo... so i'm not terribly hungry right at the moment...

and all i think i really want is for someone to just hug me and pat me on my head and tell me that everything is going to be ok.

sugar daddies must be a myth. i've never come across one. i could sure as hell use one... just someone who is willing to get me out of the shit, or at least lower the shit-o-meter to a level further below my neck anyway...

make the shit stop now, please.

!

Saturday, 30 August 2014

reassessments of current stock holdings.....

let's just take a step backwards and review, shall we?

where am i at? what i am doing? where am i headed?


  • meds are half a 50mg tablet per day (good thing)
  • i was up front and honest about my situation with brent so i advised i had to look for another job to afford to survive (good thing)
  • he let me go at the end of the day (bad thing)
  • sir jyan is being very nice to me (good thing)
  • sir neil has offered to give me a load of soil for my birthday (great thing - can lead to opportunities of developing garden more)
  • chickens are still here (wonderful thing)
  • chickens haven't laid eggs for at least a fortnight (bad thing)
  • i have a freezer full of food (great thing)
  • applied for 4 casual jobs in warehousing today (good thing)
  • brent hasn't paid me for last 2 weeks (indifferent thing - bad cause i need money, good cause money hasn't come in yet so when it does i can pay bills)
  • weather is perfect (awesome thing)
  • went out for dinner last night with a few friends to little river pub (great thing)
  • kendall still loves me (not surprised thing, along with hilarious thing)

so more than half of my list involves good/positive things...

so as expected, i'm really not doing too badly considering everything that i could list out of my brain....

looking for work is hard work in itself. but it's not impossible. something will turn up eventually.

just hoping that the time frame of 'eventually' is less than 1 week lol

and i really would like to have a job that pays me enough that i don't have to ask for financial assistance each week..... that would be a nice thing... i'd like to progress with my life at home and do all the things around the house i would like....


  • pergola to the concreted outdoor area
  • shed on the lonely slab of concrete in the backyard
  • finish off developing gardens and convert sleepered garden edging to stone/boulders etc
  • possibly consider evaporative cooling or another reasonable method of cooling for summer heat
  • service the truck (urgent)
  • new lounge suite
  • new dining suite
  • proper bed for spare room
  • shipping container for special activities.....
  • finish fencing off the house so backyard is fully enclosed for chooks to spend more time outside without me worrying they will wander off too far away from home.....


it's all just a progression..... the first step is to get a job.... then next step is look forward to when my fixed rate ends so i can look at a cheaper interest rate to save money on repayments each week!

then from there i should be able to reassess things a bit more and maybe make another step forward... it would be nice to stop taking backward steps.....

Saturday, 23 August 2014

woof.....

so once again i have had the opportunity to feel loved.

it just always seems to make the day after a bit of a downfall. being alone again with my thoughts making my guts turn and churn and my heart ache.

i still don't believe it to mean that i want a relationship with anyone.

i love trying out new things, so the pup play scene was definitely something that interested me, by the way of wanting to learn more about it and try to understand it.

it's interesting to see pictures of yourself in a pup hood and other odds and ends and wonder if indeed that really is you.

not being able to look at my face meant i was able to observe other features of my body, i commented that my arms looked good and my back also looked alright.

but yet somehow i still don't find myself attractive, but i'm really not sure whether i should, or not. i always say that it's for others to comment and me to just deal with whatever they say about me.

one thing that was said at one stage, was something that i totally agreed with - "you have a beautiful nose".

it may seem a bit funny to some people to hear a comment like that, but for me, it almost made me cry, as it's the first time anyone has ever said that since the day i got the bandages off and additional supporting packs out of my nostrils after my operation, when i looked in the mirror and said it to myself "i have a beautiful nose" - after all the trauma and pain i went through, it's the least i could say lol

so where to from here? i have no idea. i've been offered an opportunity that i really am not sure about - well i really want to take the chance, desperately, as i feel as though time will just pass me by and the window will disappear, but at the same time, is it just part of the way i am feeling right now - that i'm alone and feel like i've lost something again?

all i know is that at the end of this year, my sister is moving further north compared to where she is now, and my parents are leaving the country after dad retires (which i estimate to be within the next 5 years).

so it makes me think about creating a family for myself. i already do have people in my life that i count as family already - but i think maybe it's also important to have a family in the other way of life that i would like to lead.

i still don't know.

i just appreciated the feeling of being loved, cared for, respected, commanded upon, listened to and appreciated. let's face it, who doesn't like those feelings? well, commanded upon might be a bit limited, but i do enjoy helping and serving others to please them as it gives me pleasure all the same.

how can i possibly know what the answer is unless i try things out for myself.

it's a bit like when i entered the leather competition in 2010. i was approached to enter. after the initial shock that anyone would consider me good enough to enter, i had to think about whether it was something i wanted to do.

on one hand, i was shitting my pants at the thought of being up on stage for all to see, and that scared me.

but on the other hand, i knew that if i was asked to enter, and didn't go through with it, i'd be kicking myself on the day wishing i had entered.

my garage is now emptier after delivering andrew's things this morning... i watered all the plants in the front and back yards... washing is done and dry and ready for ironing... all the meat i bought yesterday has been bagged and shoved into the big freezer....

if something feels comfortable, then maybe it's worth having a go.

Friday, 15 August 2014

spring in the air, spring in my step

i've had a lovely day today. so far...

had a good sleep last night - wow that 14 hour day on wednesday really sucked it out of me..... i was ready to goto bed last night from about 6pm, but i pushed myself to stay up later cause i didn't want to be awake at 3am automatically lol

got a bit of gardening done today, pulled up some more celeriacs but they were mainly just roots and not much of the vegetable itself, so threw them into the compost...

i planted some leftover potatoes that i had in the pantry from what i grew the last time around, they had some shoots on them already, so threw them and the other little'ys out into the ground to see if they did anything since i wouldn't be able to eat them as they were.....

also planted some broadbeans from some of the pods i left to dry last year... threw them in a big patch in a bundle and will see what springs up.....

repotted the hydrangea's that i had bought after i got back from portugal, they needed something bigger to grow up in, so i used a couple of the flowering pots that were out the back in front of the veggie patch as they had plants that were pretty much dead in them.... the other couple got a good hair cut...

planted herbs from seed, parsley, basil and coriander, hopefully they all come up nicely cause i love to use them all....

there's a chook boob marinading at the moment for cooking up on the bbq for dinner... looking forward to that...

and then there's an orange poppy seed cake in the oven (packet mix, but it's still edible and still one of my favourite cakes hehehe)

the plumber came around and gave the diagnosis of my water pump, completely stuffed, cracked housing and everything..... so jarod, the hot plumber bear, came around and installed a new one whilst i was in the shower (had no idea they were coming back so quickly after kev had been to give his report....)

the chooks had a lovely day outside, spend a few hours just nestled under the trees in the paddock next door alongside the fence, in the sunshine, they were obviously loving the natural warmth after the frosty morning!

changed the bedsheets at long last - so tonight will be an even nicer night of sleep :-)

andrew is moving back to ballan tomorrow, he got himself a rental a few streets away from me, i'm very proud of how he is looking after himself so well.... i'll be able to deliver all his shelving and gardening bits and pieces to free up more space in the garage again.....

meanwhile i have to sort out whether the mower alex gave me is 2 or 4 stroke engine.... i tried looking up the model number online but not much luck yet... i'll give it a bit longer when the weather gets a bit warmer and the ground is dry enough for me to do a mow session.....

god i love these days when the air is still crisp and cold, but the sky is blue with no clouds to be seen and the sun is golden and yellow high up....... and the days are getting longer now too - it's just truly my favourite time of year.... reminds me of winter in canberra (the few times i've been there in winter), absolutely beautiful!

but poor april is suffering with her sciatic nerve problem... wish i was closer to help her out... i prayed for her last night... she doesn't deserve that sort of pain that is hindering so much of her normal everyday life and activities.... i hope she gets better otherwise i'm thinking about asking mum to go down and look after her for a few days until she gets the treatment she requires to feel better.......

all in all i think my reduction in meds is going well... i don't think i'm noticing too much of a difference.... i'm probably working too hard and too long hours to notice lol so long as it keeps going well enough that i can be off them by the end of this year, that's my goal :-)

damn that cake is smelling good...... 8 minutes to go then i can take it out, whip together the icing part and top it off... then there's a sweet treat for after dinners the next few nights :-)

as beautiful as the weather has been today, clear skies mean frosty cold nights, so maybe i should light a fire tonight..... been a little while since i've given it a run.....

keep smiling as much as i can when it's warranted........

Saturday, 9 August 2014

pushing through the pain.....

it's been an odd day.

i had a good list of tasks to do today. i'm really happy that i managed to declutter the garage a bit and deconstruct andrew's shelving and wire racking.... i'll hopefully deliver that to him next weekend when he's moving into his new place... then i'll have another bit of rearranging...

it's just nice to not have to jump over so much stuff to get from the house to the truck lol i've inherited some large items in the last couple months...

and then i go around the water tank to find the concrete and nearby ground covered in water.... i press the reset button on the pump to see what would happen and it sprayed water into my eyes.... thanks a lot!

so then i got really quiet and annoyed.... and then i started to question why these things seem to be happening to me a lot...

i just want to make ends meet and not have to pay for repairs of things all the time... i've been putting off servicing the truck cause i know i'm probably going to have to get new fuel injectors again, no idea how much that'll cost, and i'm probably closer to needing new tyres..... and i need a new sink mixer for the kitchen sink.... and i'm sure water bill or council rates are due to turn up any minute....

it's just frustrating the crappers out of me cause i feel like i'm working so damn hard, as hard as i ever have been, and i'm still either stuck or going backwards. i'm sick of it.

is there a way to tap into my soul to find out who i majorly pissed off in a previous life so i can try to make amends for it, the karma is being very nasty to me and i don't know why.

i feel like a lot of my blogging is just whinging and whining about stuff that's not good, but i started blogging as a means to get it out of my system, so here it all is i guess.

i tried to cry. i thought that since my medication is being lowered again that i might be closer to being able to cry a bit easier, but no, it's still difficult to force it.

again it makes me think 'is life really worth living if it's this much trouble?'

my throat is feeling a little sore, but i'll see how i pull up in the morning, if it's still the same then i'll have to get the repeat filled from the antibiotics i had last week, my tonsil tissue might still be bad...

so i guess what i'm feeling, is defeated.

it makes me start to think whether i'm just not meant to be living here. but where would i go? what would i do?

i love my home so much, why won't it let me love it and love me back?

i just dunno any more. it's starting to really test my limits and i don't know whether it's worth the pain.

Friday, 1 August 2014

snow day!!!!!!

sitting by the fire, watching the colours of the sky change from blue with sunshine, to blue with grey clouds, then different shaded grey clouds as rains come and go..... what a truly magnificent winter's day!

i went to the psychiatrist this morning and had a nice catch up, he has given me the ok to commence coming off my medication, so i start with half a tablet per day from this afternoon! woo hoo!

then i went for a lap around nqr and stocked up on a heap of food and food related things for the usual cheapness, i love that shop :-)

and then i went for a trip to masters to visit paul and give him his gloves back that he left at my place last week... got to have a quick chat to a couple of the people there i used to work with...

and then the dream came true.....

it started to snow.... and boy did it snow!!! it was a steady fall and i stood in it for short intervals to let people take a photo of me since it showed up well against my black jacket since nothing was settling on the grounds yet....

and then it got heavier! it probably wasn't heavy enough to be classed as a blizzard, but i'm sure for ballarat standards, and my standards (given i've not seen snow in australia before), it was a blizzard :-)

bundles of the staff came outside to take videos and photos of the snow shower, it was just a magnificent sight to behold. watching everything change from their original colours, turn to white... watching the dark blue road side sign of 'masters' begin to form a white corner as the snow started to cover it up.... and watching my dirty white truck turn whiter than the day i picked it up from the showroom!

i was in heaven!

i went and danced over to amanda who was texting someone about the snow and put my head on her shoulder and said "it's snowing!" i was like a kid (for once in my life lol)

the snow was bringing the best out of everybody that was around us - people commenting how beautiful it looked and how it was cold enough to be snowing anyway hehehe there were smiles galore!

i am so lucky that i got to be there for it. to share it with some good friends i used to work with. and knowing that i finally can note down the date that i finally saw snow in australia!

here's hoping that there's more on the way! it's snowed a few showers here at home in ballan, but still not enough to settle on the ground and change everything to white.....

it was very amazing to see the freeway covered in white, and all the fields, as far as the eye could see, were white like scenes from a northern hemispherical christmas!

i loved every minute of it! and i want it to happen again!!!

it's like a cleansing of the soul, the snow covers over everything that once was, to become a clean white new sheet of the future!

damn what a great day! :-)