trustworthiness.......

yes it may seem like i am whinging again, but that's what this blog is for - to extract what is in my brain and put it somewhere so i can sleep at night without holding onto the crap in my head...

i'm feeling a bit let down.

sorta not bothered by it at the same time... i guess that's why i'm feeling a bit *blah* right now...

i spoke with my mate this afternoon on the way home from work, i have hands free blueteeth in my truck so i wasn't doing anything victorianly illegal hehehe

i tried to call him earlier this afternoon to find out whether he still needed me to help him out tomorrow... he didn't answer so i just sent him a text message...

he called back and i discussed that i was aware that my new boss had been to visit him to discuss that i was going to be starting work with the new boss today, so wasn't sure if i was still needed to help out tomorrow with glass deliveries again like i did last thursday...

response = "no thank you, all the best to you!" in a very flat tone... i said i'd forward an invoice for the work i did last week and the reply was also quite short...

i guess i'm annoyed, i think i realise that he really doesn't trust me.

there's a bit of history with the old job and the new job, and i reckon my 'mate' is worried that i'm gonna reveal all his secrets to where i work now and that'll be his downfall... he's always worried that competitors are out to get him in some form...

it's not my problem - that he doesn't trust anyone.....

i don't have to deal with it any more though, so i think i'm also a bit relieved.

i would never intentionally try to harm anyone's attempts at making a life for themselves.

i would hope that others would also be the same towards me, but everyone is different.

i'm not a bad person, i've done nothing wrong.

i'm simply taking advantage of the opportunities brought to my attention, in an attempt to make life better for myself, cause no one else can do it for me. it's no one else's responsibility, really.

i just wanted to take the time to tap out the above so it will hopefully help me move forward and progress with this new position and do the best that i can for my new boss.

that's all.